Confessions of this Gal's Sinful Heart

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Confession #86 - I Need Super-Stretchy Faith

Ever want to be a superhero with super special powers to take on the forces of evil and save humanity? Who's your favorite female superhero? As women these days we have so many to choose from. There's Wonder Woman, Black Widow, Storm, Gamora, Electra and the list goes on. Mine is....Dun-un-dun-ta-dah - Elastigirl! Matriarch of the super-hero family, The Incredibles, Elastigirl can basically stretch and morph into any length and form with ease without falling apart. She's also this super cool quick-witted, resourceful, talented, passionate, driven, and supportive wife and mom to three superhero kids. To me she's close to perfect and while as wives and mothers we learn to be pretty flexible, I never really imagined that in my relationship with God, He would call me to become more like her as well, that is until this morning's revelation. Let me preface this by saying that my entire marriage my husband has worked as a freelancer. Technically we own our own

Confession #85 - Fear Not

T he politics of the day have found me glued to the media outlets of my choice. The ups and downs of today’s climate have found me in nail-biting anticipation for resolutions. Like everyone, I want everything to get better for us and for our country. The financial climate, the lockdowns, the pandemic, the racial unrest, the destruction of monuments, and the great divide between Americans. All of this has gotten me so out of whack. I almost forgot who God is and what He says about all these issues. Jesus didn’t promise us a perfect life after we become His follower, He told us straight out in John 16:33, “In this world, you will have trouble.” I don’t know a single person that doesn’t or hasn’t had some troubles in their lives. God tells us not to worry over, and over again. As a matter of fact, it says “Fear not” in the Bible 365 times. That’s pretty interesting. God must know that we wake each morning with another “fear” or worry so he gave us this command one for each

Confession #83 "It Ain't Over, Till it's Over"

You know the famous saying by the baseball great Yogi Berra, “It ain’t over till it’s over?” Well in God’s economy, it’s true! In Luke 18: 1 it says, “Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up.” In 1999 when my husband and I purchased our home, we had no children and the plan for them was years off, so we didn’t think much about school zoning. Honestly, we thought by the time we would have to be concerned with schools we would have moved into a larger home in a better area. After all, this was our starter home. Twenty-one years later and by the grace of God, we are still here. And that school zoning problem has been an issue since our daughter became school aged. Rather than send her to our local zoned schools we opted for charter schools. Knowing we could not afford to send her to a private, or Christian school that was the best we could give her. I believe the Charter schools we sent her to are great schools, with g

Confession# 82 - The Battle Rages On

I'm in a spiritual war. I suppose we all are. Mine began before an age of awareness, pulling me, twisting me until I nearly succumbed. Actually at times I have allowed this evil force to overtake me and it has cost me so much, but I know in my heart if it we'rent for God I would have been swallowed whole. In my eyes it is the truest evil there is, it's called Narcissism. According to psychologytoday.com "clinical" Narcissism encompasses a hunger for appreciation or admiration, a desire to be the center of attention, and an expectation of special treatment reflecting perceived higher status. Narcissists usually have a complete lack of empathy where others are concerned and only pursue their own interests, wants, and desires even at the cost of other's happiness. Why does this condition plague me so ferociously? Because it's a personality disorder that runs in my family. Since I was a child, I've been exposed to it's ugliness. It was the m

Confession #81 - What you Intended Against me for Evil, God Intended for Good

G od gave me the gift of writing and teaching. I feel very blessed and humbled that He chose those gifts for me and while I have other talents, these are the two God calls me to use these most. Several years ago, God called me to start writing this blog, He gave me the name and guided me through several avenues and believers to bring it to fruition. The first few years of writing it was a pure labor of love. I was learning and growing as the Lord was using it to teach and grow others as well. I had gotten great and encouraging feedback from so many of my followers too. But as many Christians can attest, whenever God has a plan to use you, Satan has a plan to stop you. And as time went on, I found that many times I've stepped out to use this gift, I was attacked more and more. For example, In my blog post Confession #62 , I wrote about how I was torn apart by a group of older Christian women for the name of my blog. It was crushing to be judged by other Christians

Confession #80 - Why do the Wicked Succeed?

A s a Christian I look around at what is happening in this world, I think, “How can they get away with this?” Why can wicked people get away with hurting, damaging and possibly destroying others for their own gain? Sadly, I do not even have to look at the world to see this common practice ring true, I can simply look within my own family. People with selfish and greedy intentions taking advantage of the system and the more innocent to get what they desire. It is so sad, it can be so infuriating and can lead to jealousy, rage and anger. Unfortunately, I have been there my friends, believe me. I look at all they prosper in and wonder where is ours? Why don’t we get a break for once? Why do they always get what they want, and their evil plans and desires always seem to be granted? There have been moments when I have allowed these feelings to make my physically sick to my stomach. For example, this quarantine has made it impossible for my husband to work. He is certainly no