Confessions of this Gal's Sinful Heart

I'm in a spiritual war.  I suppose we all are.  Mine began before an age of awareness, pulling me, twisting me until I nearly succumbed.  Actually at times I have allowed this evil force to overtake me and it has cost me so much, but I know in my heart if it we'rent for God I would have been swallowed whole.  In my eyes it is the truest evil there is, it's called Narcissism.   According to psychologytoday.com "clinical" Narcissism encompasses a hunger for appreciation or admiration, a desire to be the center of attention, and an expectation of special treatment reflecting perceived higher status.  Narcissists usually  have a complete lack of empathy where others are concerned and only pursue their own interests, wants, and desires even at the cost of other's happiness. Why does this condition plague me so ferociously?  Because it's a personality disorder that runs in my family.  Since I was a child, I've been exposed to it's ugliness.  It was the m