Confessions of this Gal's Sinful Heart

I'm in a spiritual war.  I suppose we all are.  Mine began before an age of awareness, pulling me, twisting me until I nearly succumbed.  Actually at times I have allowed this evil force to overtake me and it has cost me so much, but I know in my heart if it we'rent for God I would have been swallowed whole.  In my eyes it is the truest evil there is, it's called Narcissism.   According to psychologytoday.com "clinical" Narcissism encompasses a hunger for appreciation or admiration, a desire to be the center of attention, and an expectation of special treatment reflecting perceived higher status.  Narcissists usually  have a complete lack of empathy where others are concerned and only pursue their own interests, wants, and desires even at the cost of other's happiness. Why does this condition plague me so ferociously?  Because it's a personality disorder that runs in my family.  Since I was a child, I've been exposed to it's ugliness....

"If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing. Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. ...So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love." 1 Corinthians 13:1-13 Don't you wish life were more like the Staples button?  That was easy...Yes I wish life were easy, but the only button that works that way for me is the one that only certain ...