Confession #33 - The Slacker....

Okay, as confessions go this is one of the most difficult ones to admit, but here it is..........I'm a slacker.  Those you who know me may find that funny knowing all that I do, but the truth is the only way I can "do" it all, is well, not to.  See, I ingore the important things I'm supposed to be taking care of. 

For example, I let laundry pile up for two to three weeks.  Yup - we do have that many clothes.... I haven't cleaned the master bathroom for quite a while.  Yuck I know, I am embarrased to admit it but it's the truth....  I don't spend any and I mean any time with my husband.  I can't always do homework with my daughter.  I don't water my plants and they die.  I have a tendency to ignore my dogs....the list goes on and on.  I rarley spend time doing things that are just for me, and worst of all, latley I have even been slacking on my relationship with God. 

Between my job, my business, the household finances, food shopping, my home, my family, my pets, volunteering at my daughter's school, the women's ministry, leading a bible study, parent's group, blogging, and serving others, I'm on overload.  Even blogging right now is taking me away from doing other more important things.

In a conversation with my husband last night he suggested that I have poor time management skills.  I agree but I don't think that's all of it.  Mostly I'm just seriously tired and have nothing left to give these so called "important" things....

Slacker is not what I want written in my epitaph, and I certainly don't want to neglect my responsiblities, or more importanly my family, myself and especially my God. But lately, I'm just not living up to the Proverbs 31 potential.  Wish I had a budget for a cleaning person...okay I'm off point.  Getting back...

Life is a delicate balancing act.  Responsiblities on one side, fun and service on the other with God in the middle.  Mine, for right now, looks more like a game of Jenga, one wrong move and CRASH!  Yikes!

While praying God gave me this verse, and it's my plan to pray this every day:

Psalm 119:33-48
"Teach me, O Lord, to follow your decrees; then I will keep them to the end.  Give me understanding, and I will keep your law and obey it with all my heart.  Direct me in the path of your commands, for there I find delight.  Turn my heart toward your statutes and not toward selfish gain.  Turn my eyes away from worthless things; perserve my life according to your word.  Fulfill your promise to your servant, so they you may be feared.  Take away the disgrace I dread, for your laws are good.  How I long for your precepts!  Perserve my life in your righteousness.  May your unfailing love come to me, O Lord, your salvation according to your promise; then I will answer the one who taunts me, for I trust in your word.  Do not snatch the word of truth from my mouth, for I have put my hope in your laws.  I will always obey your law, for ever and ever.  I will walk about in freedom, for I have sought out your precepts.  I will speak of your statues before kings and will not be put to shame for I delight in your commands because I love them.  I lift up my hands to your commands, which I love, and I meditate on your decrees."

God has spoken and I heard Him saying that my focus has to be on Him and serving my family, and keeping my eyes away from worthless things.  It's time for me to reevalute priorities.  It's time to focus on getting myself fed and taken care of before I crumble.  I love all the ministries I serve and I have a heart for it all, but it's impossible to give everything my best particularly when I've not getting what I need.  It's time for me to focus on the blessings God has given me, my husband, daughter, house, and pets.  To stop neglecting and piling up my responsiblities before things crumble.

If you too are struggling as I am remember Matthew 11:28-30: "Come to me all you who are wary and burdened, and I will give ou rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

"Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for the amazing blessings you have given me.  Please Lord forgive me when I fail to take care of responsiblities and fail to place my family in the proper priority.  Remind me that by serving my family, I am serving you.  Help me to always remember that you come first before it all.  And for my dear sisters-in-Christ who struggle with slacking I pray that you would give them strength and energy, focus, and the determination to rearrange thier priorities too.  In Jesus precious name I pray, AMEN."